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Not My Shame

A memoir of trauma, taboos and the path to healing

Martina Zangger

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Ventura Press
26 August 2025
A testament to the power of female courage and strength, this intensely personal memoir reveals how one woman confronted her dark past and broke free from lifelong trauma bonds. Not content with only healing herself, author Martina Zangger has dedicated her life to helping other sexual assault survivors as they navigate both their healing journeys and the complexities of the criminal justice system. Her frankness in narrating her startling life choices displays the potency of shedding shame and the freedom that follows.

 

Sexually abused by her grandfather and uncle as a small child, Martina’s early years became the foundation for a life of struggles and wrong turns. Like many victim survivors, Martina kept her trauma a secret—a suppression that led her into sex work and ultimately into the grip of the notorious cult of the Indian guru Rajneesh.

 

For decades, Martina believed she was a magnet for abusers; that the sexual violence she endured was somehow her fault. But healing has allowed Martina to bravely face the tragedies she once buried, and to place the blame where it belongs. No longer silenced by shame, Martina’s greatest discovery is that love doesn’t have to be dangerous, that it can be respectful and kind instead.

 

This is her story, and it is a story of hope for all survivors.
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Imprint:   Ventura Press
Country of Publication:   Australia
Dimensions:   Height: 234mm,  Width: 154mm, 
ISBN:   9781763832053
ISBN 10:   1763832058
Pages:   238
Publication Date:  
Audience:   General/trade ,  ELT Advanced
Format:   Paperback
Publisher's Status:   Active

Dr. Martina Zangger has a PhD specialising in the field of interpersonal violence and a Master’s Degree in Couple and Family Therapy. She has worked at the frontline helping women and children impacted by sexual assault and domestic violence for more than 20 years. Using a holistic, trauma-informed, feminist practice model, she assists traumatised clients to find safety and healing. Martina has worked for over a decade as a university lecturer helping medical students to become patient-centred communiators and empathic practitioners. She teaches students to provide a compassionate, non-judgemental response to their patients. Now, as an Honorary Lecturer, she provides guest lectures on sexuality, diversity, social justice and mental health. Martina divides her time between Awabakal (Newcastle) and Woromi Lands (Forster). Her partner and their twenty-six-year-old daughter surround her with deep love and unwavering support.  

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