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Mahmoud M Al-Shaer - I Am Still Alive

Dispatches from Gaza

Mahmoud M Al-Shaer Olga Schubert Anna-Sophie Springer

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English
Anna-Sophie Springer
30 July 2025
A searing testimony from within a life under manifold oppression.

In I Am Still Alive: Dispatches from Gaza, Palestinian poet and cultural worker Mahmoud M Al-Shaer documents life during the ongoing war in Gaza with breathtaking clarity and devastating intimacy. Composed as a series of dispatches written since January 11, 2024, the author uses his voice to record his struggle to hold onto words in resistance to erasure and whilst bearing witness to unbearable violence. These texts offer not just a relentless chronicle of destruction, but a vital affirmation of presence, relation, and survival amidst the unspeakable catastrophes unfolding in Gaza.

From the wreckage of homes and futures, Al-Shaer builds language as shelter-raw, lyrical, defiant. His writing refuses the daily cruelty imposed by war and human rights violations, and demands the world pay attention. Each page pulses with an utterance that insists: I am still alive.

Mahmoud M Al-Shaer has dedicated this book to his three-year-old twins-Nai and Majd-now separated by nearly 1,000 kilometers and exposed to different traumas. All proceeds from the sale of I Am Still Alive (available in print and ebook formats) will go to the author to support his family and other Palestinians.

Mahmoud M Al-Shaer is a writer, poet, and editor-in-chief of 28 Magazine as well as founder and head curator of 28 Gallery in Rafah, Palestine. Al-Shaer coordinated cultural projects in collaboration with visual artists and writers for the publishing house Khuta, for Al-Ghussein House in Gaza City (where he was cultural program coordinator), for Rosa-Luxemburg-Foundation Palestine, and for Goethe-Institut Ramallah. He was co-curator of the New Alphabet School at Haus der Kulturen der Welt, Berlin (2019-22) where he also co-edited (with Olga Schubert, Gigi Argyropoulou, an Rahul Gudipudi) edition #22 of DNA, the HKW's publication series released adjacent to the program. He contributed to the 12th Berlin Biennial (2023) and was also part of two exhibitions by the Quattan Foundation in Ramallah (Instant Modernism, 2023 and The - Valley Trail, 2021). Since the beginning of the -ongoing war in Gaza, he has been working at the field hospital of the International Medical Corps (IMC) in -Al-Mawasi, Khan Younis.

Recent, undeniable, painful as an open wound and written with great poetry, directness, and intensity, these dispatches from an ongoing genocide take us right into the middle of the unbearable and also thrive with the necessary cultural resistance against it. That Mahmoud M Al-Shaer is still alive on every page lets us feel and see how it is unconscionable to look away. This is the work we need.

- Jacob Wren, author of Dry Your Tears and Perfect Your Aim

The most promising way to confront the suffocating lack of empathy for the Palestinians in Gaza and the Westbank in public consciousness, especially places such as Germany, is through deeply grounded accounts of daily life under structural conditions of destruction and survival in this ongoing war-like those found in Mahmoud M Al-Shaer's Dispatches.

- Wolfgang Kaleck, attorney and general secretary of the European Center for Constitutional and Human Rights, Berlin
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Imprint:   Anna-Sophie Springer
Country of Publication:   Germany
Dimensions:   Height: 180mm,  Width: 100mm, 
ISBN:   9783947858798
ISBN 10:   3947858795
Pages:   164
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Audience:   General/trade ,  ELT Advanced
Format:   Paperback
Publisher's Status:   Active

Mahmoud M Al-Shaer is a writer, poet, and editor-in-chief of 28 Magazine as well as founder and head curator of 28 Gallery in Rafah, Palestine. Al-Shaer coordinated cultural projects in collaboration with visual artists and writers for the publishing house Khuta, for Al-Ghussein House in Gaza City (where he was cultural program coordinator), for Rosa-Luxemburg-Foundation Palestine, and for Goethe-Institut Ramallah. He was co-curator of the New Alphabet School at Haus der Kulturen der Welt, Berlin (2019-22) where he also co-edited (with Olga Schubert, Gigi Argyropoulou, an Rahul Gudipudi) edition #22 of DNA, the HKW's publication series released adjacent to the program. He contributed to the 12th Berlin Biennial (2023) and was also part of two exhibitions by the Quattan Foundation in Ramallah (Instant Modernism, 2023 and The Valley Trail, 2021). Since the beginning of the ongoing war in Gaza, he has been working at the field hospital of the International Medical Corps (IMC) in Al-Mawasi, Khan Younis. Earlier versions of the texts gathered in this book were first published on his GoFundMe campaign launched on January 11, 2024.

Reviews for Mahmoud M Al-Shaer - I Am Still Alive: Dispatches from Gaza

Mahmoud M Al-Shaer's poetry takes your breath away. It is as if time stands still and the noise dies down: here is a clear and solitary voice speaking from a heart of darkness. How he comes into language, and how he summons the strength to give testimony, is as improbable as it is moving. Nobody will be able to say: We did not know. - Carolin Emcke, author of Against Hate and recipient of the 2016 Peace Prize of the German Book Trade Association Throughout the 600-odd days of this genocide, Gazans have been documenting daily life in abundance, often paying the cost with their lives. As readers, we must actively bear witness and honor the work of publishers who have taken up their responsibility to disseminate these crucial voices with care, above all in contexts of dire repression such as that of Germany. Mahmoud M Al-Shaer's dispatches both document the lived and felt reality on the ground, countering the institutionally enforced abandonment of empathy, and provide a profound meditation on the limits of language faced with the barbaric and unimaginable. Where for Al-Shaer language might seem helpless, his words pulsate with an affirmation of life-he is, as he writes, ""consumed with survival."" This exquisite collection should be required reading, so that ""never again"" can really mean never again, for anyone and everyone. - Shela Sheikh, editor and senior lecturer in International Politics, University of London Institute in Paris After reading Mahmoud M Al-Shaer's​ I​ Am Still Alive: ​ Dispatches from Gaza, there is something that cannot be forgotten and can never be erased: ​this is the voice of a poet defiantly present within and attentive to the catastrophe, yet also looking beyond, to a future we can rebuild together. These Dispatches relay the testimony of an expert witness who, amidst peril beyond comprehension, reaches out to a global audience to insist that solidarity is our only pathway to survival. - Eyal Weizman, author of Hollow Land, founding director of Forensic Architecture and 2024 Right Livelihood Laureate


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