I Didn't Know I Was Dying An Autistic Record of Institutional Decay The Hidden Cost of Being Different...

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M M Hager

I Didn't Know I Was Dying An Autistic Record of Institutional Decay The Hidden Cost of Being Different

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M M Hager

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M.M.Hager
23 February 2026

Memoirs; Abnormal psychology; Coping with illness

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What does it cost to be different in a world that punishes difference?

For nearly two decades, the author worked, observed, adapted, and survived - without knowing why everything felt so much harder than it should. No diagnosis. No framework. No allies. Just an unrelenting effort to decode a social world that operated by rules no one ever explained.

I Didn't Know I Was Dying is a deeply personal and scientifically grounded memoir that documents the slow collapse of a professional life under the weight of undiagnosed Asperger's, sensory overload, institutional betrayal, and chronic stress. Drawing on peer-reviewed research in neuroscience, trauma psychology, and organizational behavior, the author connects lived experience to science - not to justify, but to understand.

This is not a story of triumph over adversity. It is something rarer: an honest account of what happens when a system fails a person, and what it takes to walk away before it is too late.

For anyone who has ever felt invisible, misread, or quietly destroyed by an environment that was never built for minds like theirs - this book was written for you.

By: M M Hager
Imprint: M.M.Hager
Dimensions: Height: 203mm, Width: 127mm, Spine: 8mm
Weight: 136g
ISBN: 9798233659539
Pages: 130
Publication Date: 23 February 2026
Audience: General/trade , ELT Advanced
Format: Paperback
Publisher's Status: Active