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How I Lost Myself

Mary Ganann

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English
Mary Ganann
03 May 2026
I was a girl from the Mississippi pines who loved the pond and the smell of cedar. My descent began in 2009 when I used Adderall to chase intensity and fill the silence left after my friends went to college. I entered a relationship that felt like clarity but was actually total control.

I lost my autonomy, eventually bowing to a man who dictated my every move and thought. To survive, I developed a detached, calculated mindset I named ""Lucifer"". This internal voice became my co-pilot, numbing my emotions until I could sit in a room and feel nothing.

My choices led me to prison, but even the locked doors didn't immediately wake me up; I simply planned to be ""smarter"" about my mindset. The true breaking point came when I realized my daughter was absorbing my fear and learning to be small to keep the peace. For her sake, I left and moved back to my mother's house.

I am now reclaiming the ""girl from the pond,"" drawing on the legacy of my best friend Kayla and my Papaw's unconditional strength. I am not what happened to me; I am the person who chose to find her way back.
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Imprint:   Mary Ganann
Dimensions:   Height: 216mm,  Width: 140mm,  Spine: 4mm
Weight:   91g
ISBN:   9798233684180
Pages:   68
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Audience:   General/trade ,  ELT Advanced
Format:   Paperback
Publisher's Status:   Active

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