Because I'm Not Myself, You See: A Memoir of Motherhood, Madness and Coming Back From the Brink

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Ariane Beeston

Because I'm Not Myself, You See

A Memoir of Motherhood, Madness and Coming Back From the Brink

Ariane Beeston

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English

Black Inc
21 May 2024

Memoirs; Mental health services; Advice on parenting; Biography - Australian

A frank, hopeful and darkly funny memoir of postpartum psychosis and recovery

'How strange to be the observed and not the observer.'

Ariane Beeston is a child protection worker and newly registered psychologist when she gives birth to her first child - and very quickly begins to experience scary breaks with reality. Out of fear and shame, she keeps her delusions and hallucinations secret, but as the months pass Ariane gets worse. Much worse. Finally admitted to a mother and baby psychiatric unit, the psychologist is forced to learn how to be the patient.

With medication, the support of her husband, psychotherapy and, ultimately, time, Ariane rebuilds herself. And she also begins a new chapter working in perinatal mental health, developing resources to support other new mothers.

Because I'm Not Myself, You See is a candid, often humorous memoir of motherhood and madness, interwoven with research and expert commentary. It's the story of the impossible pressures placed on new mothers and how quickly things can go wrong during 'the happiest time of your life'. It's also about life on the other side of serious illness, trying to make sense of what doesn't make sense, and finding humour, beauty and joy when things don't go according to plan.

'Blistering, beautiful, true'

-Susan Johnson, author of A Better Woman, From Where I Fell and Aphrodite's Breath

'Ariane Beeston's honesty, poetry and wisdom will save lives.' -Anna Spargo-Ryan, author of A Kind of Magic

'Both riveting and informative, this is an unflinching look at what it is like from inside postpartum psychosis.' -Anne Buist, Professor of Women's Mental Health, University of Melbourne, and co-author with Graeme Simsion of The Glass House

'A memoir like no other ... sing s

with mordant humour on the page' -Geordie Williamson

'A beautifully written, raw and important memoir for anyone who has had a baby' -Daisy Turnbull

By: Ariane Beeston
Imprint: Black Inc
Country of Publication: Australia
Dimensions: Height: 234mm, Width: 154mm, Spine: 23mm
Weight: 393g
ISBN: 9781760644505
ISBN 10: 1760644501
Pages: 320
Publication Date: 21 May 2024
Audience: General/trade , ELT Advanced
Format: Paperback
Publisher's Status: Forthcoming

Ariane Beeston is a former child protection caseworker and psychologist with NSW's Department of Communities and Justice. She was a staff writer at Fairfax Media's Essential Baby and Essential Kids and has also published articles in The Sydney Morning Herald, Daily Life, Babyology and Mamamia. Ariane currently works for Australia's peak body in perinatal mental health, The Centre of Perinatal Excellence (COPE), as their Communications and Content Manager. She is also a dancer and choreographer. Her first book, Because I'm Not Myself, You See, is forthcoming.